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HOLY HADES! Three posts in one day. I am on a roll@@@@@@@@@@@@= me rolling

     So I have moved back home to Ontario. It was a difficult decision but I know i made the right one. I am home. I am a tad safer. I can live and breathe again. I also have the Maple tree( I know it may sound lame but it is big and beautiful I believe it is almost a century old ) . I have my family, My support team.I have my Mommy and I am not ashamed to say it.

    I have had around six Grand Mals in the last three weeks. Two were on Tuesday.  Aside from that I also had a scary overly long petite mal or two. Of course there are always the small ones aswell.

   I am a bad epileptic. I love the Midway game centre, I love thunderstorms and fireworks, I like doing things for myself and baking.

    At first when I got home I was trying to figure out where to go from here. Then I realized I do not have to go anywhere. I have to get a couple things in order and then simply enjoy life. that's what I am doing now. I am making the best out of any bad situation that I can, If I cannot then I simply wander outside and sit beneath the Maple and think. I have accepted my condition. I know what it means. It means I get to be more self aware than most people because I have to be. At least that assists me with my day to day decisions. That is it day to day. I am hoping for a full life but I am not expecting anything except to be happy. That I can have control of , this way I cannot be disappointed.

I have discovered I love creating things, making things. Doing things that physically leave a mark that I made it and I was There at that point in time. I like doing things I have some control over. I know this. I also know that it is a way to try to make up for the lack of control I have over my health.

I am happy back home. I am making plans for a garden come spring. I am getting back in touch with some friends. I am at peace. I miss my friends Back west but I know we will see each other again and they are all doing very well for themselves ( this helps make it easier on me as well)  I love to learn my friends are doing well and that things are working out!.


I just realized it it one thirty six AM. Sleep is required.

Missing my friends back west makes me think back and aprreciate them so much more, and I wish the best for all of you . I will keep in touch and we will make more memories in the years to come. I honestly Love you guys HUGS! you know who you are.



I have no regrets. I have beautiful memories <3







 I am spiking my Mohawk tomorrow provided it does not rain. I adore 13degree weather at the end of November but it is also highly disturbing.